Well, it’s the end, Goodbye.

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I can’t believe, it’s all over. My beloved journey has already came to an end. Sixty three days, just sixty three days, and one hundred and one post. It’s over, yes, it’s all over. The Den of Dreams has collapsed. The Dragon Warrior is defeated.

I have never so cold while writing ever. Even though it’s 27 degree Celsius outside, I am cold. Very cold. My fingers are colder than they have ever been. I am feeling a shiver all around me. Dread. Fear. Tension. Despair.

For the first time in my entire blogging journey, I dreaded opening my laptop. My laptop. The beloved portal to the Den of Dreams. For the first time, I was shaking so much. So much of fear, so much of nervousness.

It’s all over. I can’t see you again. I can’t read your wonderful words. I can’t view through your eyes. I can’t express my gratitude anymore. I can’t share my views. I can’t share my pain. I can’t share my laughs. I can’t cherish the precious moments whenever one of you liked me, talked with me and joined in my journey.

I don’t know if anybody would miss me. Maybe yes, maybe not. Maybe you would secretly be happy that I left. But I would certainly miss you. More than any words can explain. I would miss our each and every moments together.

I wanted to do so many things before bidding my goodbye. I wanted to thank everyone of you. I wanted to write a letter to my beloved “elder sister” Nina, I wanted to talk with Lily of the Virgo, I wanted to visit Lumis with Elyan White, I wanted to discuss cricket with Ink ’em Down, I wanted to ask Sheree about her travels, I wanted to read all of your answers, I wanted Alex Carey to see my blog once, I wanted to celebrate my birthday with you, I wanted to create my own award on WordPress, and a hundreds and thousands of things. I wanted to stay with you forever. So many dreams in the Den of the Dreams. But now as the Den collapses, all the dreams are buried deep, deep inside.

It’s the end, I know. And standing in the dying light of the dusk, shivering with fear of losing you all, I feel quite fearless as well. I can tell anything I want without having the fear to lose anything else.

So, let me say something that I always wanted to shout out: “Haters are going to hate, but for their scorns, I will never change myself! I will follow my own path, even if it means standing up alone!”

And yes in my journey so far I have learned something important: “Blogging is not all utopia. You can get hurt as well.”

And I also wanted to speak out to my favourite bloggers for the last time…

Sheree, you would always be my beloved! I can never forget my gratitude to you! You have let me touch the stars of my dreams. Please do keep coming in my dreams!

Tatterhood, you were my very first friend in the blogging world and always close to my heart. I know, just today morning, I promised you I’d be there with you always and now I have to leave.

Renee, you were, you are, and always would be deep, deep down in my heart. I can never forget your kindness and compassion and care you had given me.

Nina, you are my true figure of courage and inspiration. If there is one light that never fades, that’s you. You are the very flame of goodness that can never be extinguished. Your little sister Mira has to leave now, though.

Crimson, you are the very best teacher my journey has brought me to. Always an ocean of knowledge, and showing me the path I should go. You brought the world to my eyes.

Elyan White, you are my beloved and I daresay my bestfriend in blogging world. I loved suggesting. I really wanted to visit Lumis. I am so sorry to disappoint you like this.

And at last, I bid my apologies to anyone I had offended or had by chance put in discomfort. I really had not mean to. I am so sorry.

And thank you for all those three hundred and thirty one people who had been with me in my journey.

Parting are always hard I know but never have I cried so much at leaving someone since the age of 11, when my previous best friend left.

The days ahead look very empty indeed. I would miss you all from the deepest of my core.

And the last words, about my name. I know, and I am blessed to have so many nicknames all around the world. Ms. Warrior from Jessica E Larsen, Mira from my beloved Nina, and Sophie for most of you. I am sorry, I can never reveal my true name, but my favourite thing to call myself is Shizen, which means nature.

I am so sorry that I can’t tell you the reason for parting. It’s painful, for me and I really don’t want to speak it out.

It’s a long tiring post, I know, and I had been hyper emotional. But well, it’s all over. Thank you so much for being with me.

Goodbye!

Yours always,

Dragon Warrior (yes, my nickname to myself, Shizen)

84 thoughts on “Well, it’s the end, Goodbye.”

  1. I was always thankful that you would take the time to read my posts even though I’ve only just started. I was always thankful that you would go the extra mile to comment on my posts so we could have a chat. I was always thankful that you actually took the time to mention me, someone who just started a few days ago, and nominate me for an award. I will continue to be thankful to you for your dazzling personality and will never forget your talent in writing and poetry that has truly inspired me. Why must you leave?

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    1. Dear Tiger, I don’t know how I can thank you. I am really sorry, but the cause has to be hidden. I really wanted to have spend some time with my new friends at WordPress. But I am unfortunate.
      And I can’t tell how much I admire you as well. I promise, whenever I get a little bit of free time, I would go over to your place and would have a chat with you. I would wait for that day when I can return. Thank you, thank you so much, for being beside me till the end. Thank you.

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  4. I will always miss you Shizen!! 😞😞I will miss our wonderful talks!! Your precious comments and everything….
    You are a rising star, a true warrior dragon…..All the best dear!!
    I will always remember you and too don’t forget this friend
    – lots of love from Jyoti ❤️❤️

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  5. I don’t have words to say, God be with you always. Inshaallaha a day will when we see the world as you dream of, where we can’t find hatred, violence, injustice. That will be a place where only peace exists with justice for all.
    God bless you, you are real warrior.
    💕💕💕

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  6. I will miss you quite horribly. I looked forward to seeing you every day. Writing with you, in and out of your world, was an exhilaration I treasured. You will always be remembered in the community here. Thank you and farewell, warrior.

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  12. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

    though the sun is shining, there is nothing but darkness because of this news.

    thank you for sharing this short time with us/me.

    please be safe and please come back and never stop being who you are and do not let ANYONE tell you differently.

    dont stop dreaming.

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  18. In death, there is rebirth. In hurt—there is healing. Wherever your path my lead you, dear sweet, Mira Shizen—be well…
    Study study study! 🤗🙏🏻💞. I won’t forget you.
    Your beloved older sister, Nina :). (and I promise, I’ll keep practicing too)

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  19. My Beloved Beautiful Dragon Warrior! You will always be!
    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  20. Hey there Sophie Shizen!! This is indeed very sad news to hear! I always enjoyed the conversations we had together, I loved your beautiful art and you are a wonderful writer, dreamer and friend. I will truly miss you because you are a friend, a good friend. I wish you well on your new journey wherever that takes you, keep dreaming Shizen and never worry about what others say to you, just continue to be you, stand up strong and look ahead. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been a better friend to you. I really hope that you will be back here some day. God bless you from Steve and Muffin!😃😃😺😸😻😻😽💗💗💗💗💗💗

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  21. Sophie or Shizen….. you’ll always be my Dragon Warrior! ❤️ Miss you a lot already 😢😢😢…. As promised, I shared your poem for me ….. your masterpiece handcrafted with pure love. Thank you so much …..

    Also shared my special battlecry song ( WARRIOR) with you on my blog …..

    https://passcodelove.com/

    I know you will prevail. After all, YOU ARE A WARRIOR . OUR WARRIOR. AND WE LOVE YOU! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  22. Dragon ! Dear !… COME BACK …

    You are a Dragon, dear, and a WARRIOR. And we all enjoy your articles, your writing style, your questions, your poetry, your wonderful attitude. DO NOT give up. There is no reason to say goodbye. Unless if it is something personal. I suspect it isn’t. And i suspect that you were being bullied. However, we all like you, and we want you back, no matter what. Take your time, have some rest, have some fun, and come back. We ‘ll take care the rest, dear.

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  23. I would really miss you all those days. Those beautiful comments from you, the conversation we had. I enjoyed every day with you. I was hoping for more collaboration but this tragic accident broke all my expectations. You are a great artist and I would really like to thank you for being so kind with me. May god bless you, and you have a wonderful journey ahead Sophie. ( I will come to Cygnet to meet you)

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  24. Thanks for checking my blog… but sorry to read that you are leaving? I may be too late to know you but I hope this is only temporary and you will come back to blogosphere. Take care!

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  28. This is a shock Ms. Warrior. Stand up and fight those haters if they are the reason you’re quitting! Who am I going to enjoy chatting about manga and anime now? I just lost an important love one, now I’m losing one of my favorite blogger too? 😭
    But I’ve read your every word and I feel your stress and pain. I won’t hold you back if you really want to go, but if you ever come back to blogging, please give me a ping. Thanks for the shout out. 🙂

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  29. I’m sorry we never spoke. I hope you see this comment. You made my mother smile. She talked about you you left a mark on this website. Dont think that what you have done has been insignificant. You are a dragon warrior are you not? Depart in flames. And be brave. Carry out your wildest dreams. Soar as high as the sun will allow your scorching scales to travel.
    I wish you well

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  30. I am in tears right now Sophie…😭😭😭 I never got to say goodbye… and maybe that is a good thing, because I refuse to say those words my adoptive daughter! I will be praying for the day that you WILL return back to your love of writing and drawing! We will be here till then! I pray that if a person has caused this, that they are deeply ashamed! You have a talent and gift that the world needs! I will be praying for you! Many blessings to you my young friend! And I regret not being finished with the post I was doing for you—but am determined to finish it more than ever now! It will be waiting for you when you return some day when the timing is right. God Bless you! Keep dreaming Shizen!

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    1. Oh dear Tatterhood, I am quite alright, was just struggling a bit with myself. Well I have won and I promise I would return by mid of the month.
      And thank you so much for your care! I can’t believe that someone would care so much about me… I really feel blessed! Thank you sooo much…💓😃

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      3. In the first place I know your birthday is on 7th of September. You told me that your birthday was near August and September. I also have some secret detective agents…😂😂😂

      6. How did you get her personal information like this? That’s a bit overwhelming. I hope you have good intentions with her personal information considering she is a minor. It would be a shame to hear that someone had ill intentions toward our little dragon princess.

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      3. A creative way of spending time.😊😊 I am 12 right now, and I would spend my 15th birthday just hanging out with my friends and family, and getting a lot of presents 🎁 from my relatives and parents. ( I love them)

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  44. hi there DW
    you are the third blogger this last week that I know who is pulling the plug.
    —
    I am so sorry to hear that I will miss you on what pegman saw
    sniff.

    but I know what it is like when the dread creeps in – and maybe at a later time you will find a different way to enjoy the blog world.
    I have had different paths and thank goodness for that because it led to finding a groove that does work for me
    – but even that could change again so I am riding the wave right now.
    but you are right about the social crap that can sneak in via blogging and it does take a toll even if we can cope and shake it off later –
    anyhow, keep writing no matter what or where you do it – because you are talented – and you also gave good feedback on flash fiction./
    🙂
    Peace

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  45. Thank you for reading my blogs. Sorry that you feel so lost but tomorrow is land that you have never have discovered in your life. Please see the reason for never giving up ,never ,never ,never ,never give up The world is outside your door dont feel lost feel loved and your the person to find it.

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      1. I’m glad you stayed!

        So many times I thought I’d drop my blog. But I keep meeting people that want me and some seem to need me.

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